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Ryutaro

I'm tired of keeping this inside of me.

I know I had these depressing posts going on some months ago, right after Ryutaro's so called "scandal."

After that my whole jump fandom fainted, not because I stopped liking them, but simply because I got so depressed looking at them knowing that Ryutaro, my favorite, was not there anymore.

I remember going to Johnny's Shop last summer, realizing that they had taken away all the photos of him (I srsly raged inside) but I was going to buy some photos anyway... I mean I still liked the other members, right? But no, my rage took over and I decided that if Johnny were going to be such a bitch (sorry) I would not buy any pictures. So I left without buying anything.

Months went by and I stopped thinking about it too much. I mean as long as I didn't look at any jump related stuff I didn't cry. But of course it happened that I did after that I would sit by myself, crying and missing my Ryuu. But even though I stopped thinking about it as time passed by I still had this hope somewhere inside that he would come back, someday.

Later his photo disappeared from Johnny's net I think most of us understood that it was over, I wish I would have understood. Instead I acted like nothing happened.

Then all these rumors came before new years that he will come back and of course I started to hope even more again. (knowing that I shouldn't) But no.

And then yesterday we got the official news that he won't ever come back to JUMP. I know I kinda knew it all along but of course I had kept hoping… I mean how could I have stopped? I didn't cry yesterday... everything just felt weird and I guess I just couldn't understand it since I've always been thinking that he'll come back. And just now, after letting it digest a bit I realize that he actually won't and it hurts. (non-fangirls will probably think I'm mental)  but all the fangirls out there… you know what I mean. 

For almost three years Ryutaro has meant so much for me, perhaps even a bit too much at times. And realizing that the person that has been on my mind 99% of the time won't be coming back is just hard, awful, sad. it just didn't excist in my world.  Non-fangirls will probalby think "But gosh you don't even know that person" FU AGAIN (sorry) You simply don't understand. I mean I have been a fangirl for so many years already and Ryutaro has been the most important one among all of my fandoms, and will still be. When I was sick and where at the bottom, JUMP could actually make me happy. "Take care of your happy thoughts" Right? Shouldn't we all do that? And JUMP is one of the things that makes me happy.

In 2 days it has been exactly 2 years ago since I saw JUMP live for the first time, and hopefully not the last.  Yabu wasn’t there so it was only nine of them, and of course it's sad knowing that I won't ever see all 10 of them at the same time. I’m also so angry and disappointed at myself that I never sent him a fan letter, I did start writing numerous of times but I never sent them away since they never became perfect.

I really do hope that this "not coming back" decision was his own, because then I do understand and accept it. Even though I now know that he won't be coming back to JUMP I will start hoping that he will, as my mum said come back someday "He will probably become a superstar by himself!"

I really do hope you're right mum, I really do. Maybe not tomorrow, or in a year, but someday.

I wish you the best of the best and all the happiness in life. And that we will meet soon, so we can plan our life together when we eventually get married. (ok I should stop. lol.) I still love him though.

xoxo devastated but not mental (or maybe) Morimoto Ryutaro fan.

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it's still 2011

Today I ate lunch in the city with some firends while planning new year's eve - I'm excited! I have to go and buy a dress tomorrow though.. uh. no idea what to buy.

 Then I went home and made this.

After that this little person came. We watched the last song (srsly I love that movie) and ate ice cream~

♥ 

Shopping

Shopping ♥

Today I realised that I have a script to learn before the break is over...

So I've been highlighting and practicing all my lines~

it's 00.28 am and I'm going to take a long warm bath and read, bye ♥

Christmas

 My christmas has been nice..and I got the most awesome christmas presents. ♥

And I have been baking a lot as well.. of course.

I decided not to bake gingerbread cookies this year since I like the ones that you can buy in the store better. Instead I baked sugar cookies and made them look like gingerbread cookies. I also made my own tea for the first time, it was one of my christmas presents to my mum ~

Going home to Becci soon to watch the Top Model finale..haven't been there for year(s)! 

Bye ♥

Top 2 Christmas presents ♥

Mulberry bayswater  ♥

Dr Martens Classics  ♥

So my vacation started yesterday, yay! 

Some of us went to a cafée afterwards, so yeah.. my vacation has had a nice start♥

I'm tierd. and stressed, since it's christmas on saturday and I have quite a lot that I have to do tomorrow..ugh. but still, it's kinda fun.

Even though it's not a lot, I'm still happy for the snow we have ♥

Firday photos..on a wednesday.

Whose winter break has begun?

Mine !

It was my dad's birthday on friday and I baked a cheesecake.

And we bought a christmas tree, it's a tradition to buy it on my dad's birthday <3
Now I'm going to watch the inbetweeners...

freedom.

Math test part 1 ✗

Training journal ✗

Math test part 2 ✗

Spanish hand-in ✗

OMG I'M FREEEEEEEEE.

(so my life isn't as much fml as yesterday)

So today I had my last test and last hand-in for the year, happiness.

After school I went Christmas shopping with Anna, I've almost bought all my Christmas presents now!

Can't belive christmas is on saturday, it's too soon..I mean I haven't had time to get that cozy christmas feeling yet. 

And I just have to say that julkalendern is kinda cute this year.

FML. srsly.

Cupcake Stockholm

Me and Amanda has this "try new cute cofeehouses" thingy going on. love it.

We went to Cupcake stockholm after school last friday. ♥

We got these two mini cupcakes for free because the girl who worked there thought we were cute for staying at the café for such a long time. I always stay at cofeeehouses for hours~

Yesterday I went to a dinner at my friend's house with a group of girls from my class. It was really nice~ Missed the train though and had to wait for it in 30 min..

Today I'm going to stydy and study and study and watch Pan Am! and study. so bye.

Saffransbullar

Here are the saffron and marzipan buns that I baked yesterday. Omnom. Recommended.

It snowed today...finally! I really hope there's going to be snow on Christmas (not after...)

Got stuck in the traffic jam on my way to school... messed up my morning a bit, but the rest of the day has been pretty good.  Just 2 1/2 weeks left in School...longing for vacation

History presentation tomorrow. Hate presentations... I always get so nervous. ):

Rice pudding and some tea

I love sundays sometimes

Rice pudding breakfast ♥

Went to Nacka Forum ate Sushi, bought christmas tea and coffee~

And a new muffler

Borrowed books in the library

Baking~

Elf

Watched Elf today, I love christmas movies. When I watch Elf I get this wonderful Christmas feeling. Guess it's because it's been on TV every year around Christmas for som years now... It's a Christmas tradition. ♥

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IT'S ACTUALLY CHRISTMAS SOON!

Vad jag bryr mig om nu är att från samma säng lyssna till samma regn

 Finished "One Day" yesterday.

Dex and Em. Em and Dex

TenJUMP ♥

Eventually, we all grow up - Happy Birthday

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Happy Birthday Hikaru!

I love you Hikary, I really do

you're awesome 

♥お誕生日おめでとう♥

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Happy Birthday ! ♥

♥　　お誕生日おめでとう　♥　

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CHINEN !

wow...you're so big now, I'm proud. ;_;

Attitude Stockholm

Yesterday I went to this event called Attitude Stockholm with my friends Amanda and Sanna. It was really fun~ I need to go to more events like this!

I bought new shells to my iphone and ipad! Pretty right?! haha